the questions are
also the answers.

i seen all good people
turn their heads to stay so
satisfied i'm on my way.

Franz Schubert Piano Sonata No. 21 B Flat

never never never never

There is a disney world perpetually
living inside the pretty snow globe
of Other Choices. Accept this and
you will be happy.

i have been feeling

lately well whatever

at least i can feel even feeling like

shit is better than who

am i kidding, i hate feeling like 

i could have done something

better different been meaner

or played the game like a man, as

if being a man would have made things

easier. i dreamed i had a son. i dreamed 

things were stolen from me, my wallet

my ID, my purse rifled through by

an unknown hand. maybe the

dream was telling me that the things

i'd been protecting, the things i'd been

hanging on to were running me

while i'd been driving with the window

down, one arm browner than the other,

as if all was well.

owning the road here while all 

around me, things were falling into the ground

just like the old house now just a toy
in the attics of memory.

never the end

when the universe comes down hard on
you and gifts your enemies with
your very best friends so that their laughter
echoes down the hall where you are left standing
alone and you feel the world has begun to spin
backwards and you question what day it even is
anymore, or if there was ever such a thing as
a day since your despair has blinded you into believing
this long night will never end, listen: don't believe
those voices that you hear. those voices that are
telling you how they've won the prize of
togetherness meant for only them.
don't sing out your chorus
of agony and broken hearts because this is not the end.
the end is never the end. the universe will go on
and so will you. the sun will become bright again and
you will see the shadows this brightness has now cast
upon your face. you will be wiser to the treachery
of happiness and understand that nothing forever
stays in its place except the dead. and even they are crumbling
and shifting in their place as only the dead can. so go on with
your life. be wise be free. don't give up on the idea that life is meant
for living.